Routine



Savanah and I in my mum's room (Me with no shred of make up on)

 So being a mum and a student makes life seriously hectic. I have never been one to stick to a routine. I have tried on many occasions but end up giving up after a couple of days. However, now that I am a mum I believe I will have to have routines.

At the same time I have never been a girl who knows all about make up and I have never had a face cleansing routine. So my goal now is to get a routine and stick to it as well as improving my make up knowledge. I have started a routine a week ago and have been managing to stick to it which makes me feel really good =)

I want to improve me and improve my life not just for me but for my daughter plus I need to find me a man that makes me happy rather than the ones that end up hurting me like in the past.
Anyway I am rambling now so I am going to, have school work to do.


Goodnight beautiful people xxx

Nails

My mum is a Nail Technician =D To start with when she was training it was great getting m nails done all the time for free but after so many times I'm kind over it. But every now and then for special occasions or to treat myself I love getting it done.

So the weekend just been was my friends 18th party, was very low key but I still got dressed up because it was my first night out in a long time being a single mum and all. I got mum to use her new product called Shellac, it's just like a nail polish with a few extra steps and usually lasts up to 3 weeks. This colour I got is a bluey purple with a blue glitter, quite pretty. And me being me I have already ruined them after 3 days, I don't think my nails like anything on them except acrylic.

Anyway, it's time for me to get to sleep, quite late and very very tired.

Goodnight beautiful people of the world wide web

Fear

So, I'm a bit of a wuss. Okay a lot of a wuss, I hate the dark, I hate spiders, I hate small spaces and feeling trapped. One thing I really hate is scary movies, unless I have a partner to snuggle with for the rest of the night, but because most of the time it's just me, myself and I, it never works well for me.

Lately however I have had a small thing for zombie movies, at he moment there is a programme on every wednesday night called the walking dead I have been enjoying and I have also just finished watching the Resident Evil series. I used to HATE zombie programmes, even just 1 minute of them would freak me out but strangely enough I have been fine with them.

What is everyone else afraid of ?

History

Sitting here watching "The Other Boleyn Girl," a time in history that I am currently studying, the Elizabethan times. A scary, horrible, and tricky time. How anyone survived and lived happily through those times is beyond me. No painkillers or advanced medicine for birth, fractures or wounds, no contraception, no painless death, and fear of a king who can do whatever he pleases. 

But the one thing that is getting to me in this movie is the disappointment of mother's high in court when they give birth to a baby girl, it breaks my heart that after giving birth to a precious sweet girl you get a look of complete disappointment rather than love and joy. How can a mother not feel love and happiness towards their newborn baby, that your status to the world is ever more important.

I am ever greatful that these days women are largely considered equal to men and mostly given equal oppertunities ( Not quite full equality yet). And I am also very greatfull that I was not born in those times, it seems like hell, probably because all I know is the present which is much much different.

Something to think about.... What would it be like if thngs were still like that today ?

xx Goodnight beautiful people xx

Comfort

Ingredients

• 2 cups all-purpose flour
• 1/2 teaspoon baking soda
• 1/2 teaspoon salt
• 3/4 cup unsalted butter, melted
• 1 cup packed brown sugar
• 1/2 cup white sugar
• 1 tablespoon vanilla extract
• 1 egg
• 1 egg yolk
• 2 cups semisweet chocolate chips

Directions

1. Preheat the oven to 325 degrees F (165 degrees C). Grease cookie sheets or line with parchment paper.
2. Sift together the flour, baking soda and salt; set aside.
3. In a medium bowl, cream together the melted butter, brown sugar and white sugar until well blended. Beat in the vanilla, egg, and egg yolk until light and creamy. Mix in the sifted ingredients until just blended. Stir in the chocolate chips by hand using a wooden spoon. Drop cookie dough 1/4 cup at a time onto the prepared cookie sheets. Cookies should be about 3 inches apart.
4. Bake for 15 to 17 minutes in the preheated oven, or until the edges are lightly toasted. Cool on baking sheets for a few minutes before transferring to wire racks to cool completely.

So I find myself in need of comfort, outside is pouring with rain with loud crashes of thunder and bright lightning. My home tonight is dreery and depressing, everyone dragging there feet, even my daughter is restlessly sleeping.
So of course when I think of comfort I think of food, I love food and these cookies are the absolute perfect comfort food, they are the most delicious cookies I have ever made. Can't make any at the moment as I don't have all the ingredients but I so wish I could.
So, if you need some kinda of cmfort whip up a batch of these beautiful cookies and eat them still warm out of the oven and you will be floating on air. =)

The Begining



First 24week Scan



Being a mum is hard work. Being a single mum is even harder work. I'm 18 and I found out I was pregnant on July the first 2011, I was 24 weeks pregnant and didn't even know. That day changed my life forever. I had a hard decision to make, I become a mum or I give my baby up for adoption, no matter what I decided it was going to be hard, very hard emotionally and physically. I was going to have a baby in 3 months time.

All year I had been feeling unwell, as well as being very underweight. I was getting migraines, dizzy spells and blurry vision. I pretty much lived at my doctors office. On July the first the doctor listened to my tummy, checking something and that was when he said the words that changed my life forever, "Nope, there's definitely a baby in there."

The next three months were a blur of appointments, blood tests, hard decisions, and people's opinions. My due date (labour weekend) came and went. I was booked in for a scan to check that everything was okay, if it was I would be induced a week later (They don't like you going over two weeks overdue). My scan turned out to be very scary, I was told i had to go straight to the hospital as there wasn't much fluid surrounding baby.

At hospital not a lot happened so we went home to get my stuff and ring and tell everyone. I was induced the next afternoon and that's when everything started happening, The birth was very hard and traumatic (probably payback for such an easy pregnancy) but in the end my baby girl was born at 12:04am on the 29th October 2011, 7 pounds 5 ounces. The moment I saw her I knew there was no way I could give her up, she is mine, my beautiful little treasure. Savarnah Donna Lavin.